This is all just a dream, isn't it?

It's been a while

2006-03-15T01:20:35Z

It's truly been ages since I have written in here. It seems as though my life is at a stand still and I really haven't had anything to say. I do feel however, that I am really adjusting to being home and things are really starting to pick up for me. For those of you who still do not know, and I know there are a couple of you, I am currently not attending Central nor am I in Mt.Pleasant. I left school for personal and financial reasons. I am back in St. Clair Shores where I recently discovered it is hard for people to leave here and stay gone. Things were really rough at first, but like I said, I am adjusting. I can say now that I like it here. I like being home and I like my life here. It's getting increasingly harder imaging having a like in Mt.Pleasant again. That's it.

Numb

2006-01-13T02:18:48Z

This whole not being up in Mt.Pleasant thing is really starting to hit me...hard. I feel numb from all that has been happening. As much as I like it here at home, I miss Mt.P like crazy. Things are just so dramatically different it is like I am living someone else's life. Being here is better than I had anticipated though, I don't know how, but it is better. I feel like a grown up. But I also feel like I am stuck...working a 9-5 job and will never finish school, I don't want to be one of those people.

Another Day

2005-12-10T23:55:17Z

Started packing yesterday; realized I had too much clothes so I gave some to Goodwill. Plan today was to pack and do homework all day. I packed a little...I ended up spending the whole day shopping. Didn't buy anything, we just went shopping because it was too early to start drinking.

is this karma?

2005-12-07T05:22:49Z

if something in my life were to go good right now, i do not know what i could do. on top of everything else, when i was convinced that i had hit rock bottom, i get a flat tire. which i know is really not that horrid (in fact it is the best of the things gone to shit) but even so; i cannot deal with something else going wrong right now. i don't mean to through a pity party or anything like that but come one, you thought your life was bad; ask me about mine and you will feel better in no time!

I've Been Tagged...

2005-11-27T22:01:37Z

10 years ago I was: Ten years old and probably not a very happy camper.

5 years ago I was: In my sophmore year of high school oblivious of all the damage I was doing to my body.

1 year ago I was: Getting back to Mt.P from home.

Yesterday I: Spent the day with my sisters and cut and dyed my hair to get over a boy.

5 snacks I enjoy:
Potato chips
Ice cream
Candy
Salame sandwiches
Tequitos

5 songs I know all the words to:
Me So Horny (I know...weird)
Someday We'll Know
It Matters To Me
Juicy
Big Poppa

5 things I would do with 100 million dollars:
Buy a house
Buy a new car
Pay off school
Pay off my debt
Buy things for my family

5 favorite TV shows:
Grey's Anatomy
Desperate Housewives
Prison Break
Passions
Dr. Phil

5 bad habits:
Smoking
Being Bitchy
Holding a grudge
Beating myself up over stupid stuff
Assuming the worst

5 biggest joys:
My sisters
Being at home
My family
Being really super great at something
Finding something I lost

5 People to Tag:
Katie
Jessica
Emily
Rachel
Whoever else wants to do it!

What A Week

2005-11-15T02:55:04Z

I amazed at the end of everyday at how much I get accomplished. I have been busting my ass for the past few days so that I can get everything done so that I can go home this Thursday and stay for a week and a half. *I don't know why I do this to myself.* I have gotten myself in such a habit of going home so often that it seems like an addiction. This particular addiction has a few parts it. My family, Katie and Chris (yep, she counts twice), and Justin. One of these things (I am hoping not) might not be in the equation for long. *This have been kind of off.* Even so, I am very excited to go home and for Thanksgiving. I have recently decided that Thanksgiving is my new favorite holiday; you are with your family, there is no pressure to buy gifts, you don't have to dress up you have the option to, and you don't have to go to church. I cannot think of a better holiday, besides my birthday of course.

I suck

2005-11-01T21:53:17Z

Just kidding, I am having major light buld changing issues...I got a little too excited a little too soon.

The Man of the House

2005-11-01T21:49:11Z

Yah! I just changed my light bulb!!!

Living Backwords

2005-11-01T00:40:36Z

Things are going so good for me right now, I feel like something REALLY bad is going to happen any minute now.

I am growing more and more addicted to going home on the weekends. I am going home for Thanksgiving for a week and a half and I could not be more excited. I absolutely love living with my sister and I really feel like I could not ask for more.

I Got Tagged...

2005-10-19T21:16:49Z

5 details about me:

~ I am a jeans and hoodie person

~ I love organizing

~ I drink mountain dew incessantly

~ I smoke

~ I sleep with a bunny

5 details about my appearance:

~ Straight Hair

~ Blue-gray eyes

~ Great smile

~ 4 tattoos

~ Tall

5 memorable things I did in the past year:

~ Homecoming 2005

~ Caught a good boyfriend

~ Got lucky with number 4

~ Got my own apartment

~ Filled my friend quota

5 favorite movies

~ How To Lose A Guy In Ten Days

~ Breakfast At Tiffany's

~ Goodfellas

~ Casino

~ The Notebook

5 things that make me happy

~ My friends

~ Being in SCS

~ Cold Stone

~ Organizing

~ CFX Movies

5 things that impress me

~ Good teeth

~ Making me laugh

~ Being spontaneous

~ People who are very flexible

~ Knowing movie qoutes

5 things that don't impress me

~ Farting

~ Loud cars

~ Spitting

~ Being cocky

~ Really smart people, like Harvard people

5 people tagged to do this:

~ Katie B.

~ Jessica H.

~ Stephanie

~ Jessica B.

~ Emily B.

Because I Can

2005-10-12T05:33:34Z

If you read this, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) by what people remember about you.

How Could This Be

2005-09-28T17:27:21Z

It seems strange to me that this is my third year at school and I still miss home. I go home more than anyone I know (exept Katie because she goes home with me). And that comes to make me wonder why in the hell I chose to go to a school two and a half hours away from home. It's beyond me.

Sick As Usual

2005-09-15T03:31:53Z

Went to Readycare today.
I have strept throat.
My tonsils are infected.
I feel like shit.

On a good note, I think I may be going home this weekend. I really miss everybody back home. I need to see my sisters.

Random Happenings.....

2005-09-12T18:48:49Z

Random Act # 1:
I walk into the bathroom at Little Chef and to my suprise see a guy standing at the sink. So now I am thinking 'holy shit I cannot believe I just walked into the wrong bathroom.' So the guy goes 'I'll be out in a minute.' So I look at the sign on the door and to my relief it says women. So here I am wondering why there is a guy in the women's room and I don't know whether to just go in the stall and pee or wait until he leaves. So I go in the stall and take a seat. Well by now, I am so weirded out that I cannot pee. And then he leaves. How weird!?

Random Act # 2:
Me, Katie, and Nate went to Saginaw for the day on Saturday to shop. Afer shopping we go to Olive Garden for dinner. While waiting for our food to arrive, this man named Wally comes to our table. He tells us to enjoy our food and enjoy the company. Well I think, how nice, move on. Well, he stands around for awhile and says 'oh I don't know if I told you this before but if you want more olives you can have more olives' and I am thinking, nope, never told me that before, this is the first time I ever met you. So he proceeds to tell us a couple of corny jokes, that of course start with, 'I don't think I've told you this one before.' He was the cutest old man ever and it was hilarious. I think they should have Wallys at restaurants all around the world.

only_a_dream_28 @ 2005-09-07T11:35:00

2005-09-07T15:36:05Z

1. Reply with your name and I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Hung Over

2005-08-27T16:21:24Z

My head hurts.
I can't hear very well.
My stomach is on edge.
My memory of last night is slightly off.
It was a good night though.

Frank Jr. Jr.

2005-08-26T05:57:35Z

My ear hurts. I was on the phone for like two hours. That's insanely too long for two people to talk. I got Frank Jr. Jr. today; named after the late Franklyn and Frank Jr. This place is really starting to feel like home, although I miss my real home very much.

Could this year beat last?

2005-08-25T06:08:15Z

Last night's back to school bash was absolutely amazing. It was at Concord where we usually partied on Friday's last year. It was nice to see some people from last year. It makes me feel at home to see all of these familiar strangers. This week I have felt like I am on vacation because I just sit around all day and hang out.

My Life

2005-08-21T23:46:35Z

I miss my sisters. I only feel like 1/5 right now. I need Katie to tell me what to do and answer my seemingly endless questions; I need her here to listen to me and advise me and guide me to be a good person. I need Jess here because she is the best girlfriend ever and she understands me, we are always on the same page and I need her to goof around with and to laugh with. I need Em here because we are sistas and we are so in sync. I need to carry her and her to listen to me when I need to bitch about something because I know she will not judge. And always last but never least I need Rachel here because she lives to please and sometimes I just need to be taken care of. I need her here so that I can listen to her and remember how carefree life can be at the mere age of thirteen.

Laziness is a disease

2005-08-20T23:30:12Z

I feel so lazy. After I got done working out and showering for the day I have done absolutely nothing but watch TV all damn day. For the past 5 hours that is exactly what I have been doing. I need to get out of here. I think Target is calling my name.

back in the mt.p

2005-08-19T20:59:25Z

Apartment life is a lot more lonely than I thought it was going to be. I guess it is because Katie is away until Monday. I miss home already and I have only been here for four hours. I didn't think that my car would even make it up here, but it did. It made it all the way up here with no problem and now the piece of shit won't work. Just my luck.

10 Days

2005-08-05T01:37:51Z

Only ten days until I move back to Mt. Pleasant. I am super excited but sadder than I thought I would be. My sister and her boyfriend just bought a new house and a dog and things are going pretty good at home. I guess I am just not ready to leave yet.

But on the other hand I know I must be crazy because being in Mt. Pleasant rocks and that is where all of my best buds are.

Quite Unfortunate

2005-07-20T23:41:34Z

It took a seriously unfortunate event for me to realize that some people just don't seem to give two shits about anyone but themselves. That's sad.

On another note, I read for four hours today. Weird.

Stolen from Kasia

2005-06-22T00:48:25Z

1. give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. how long have you known me?
3. when and how did we first meet?
4. what was your first impression?
5. do you still think that way about me now?
6. what do you think my weakness is?
7. do you think I'll get married?
8. what makes me happy?
9. what makes me sad?
10. what reminds you of me?
11. if you could give me anything what would it be?
12. how well do you know me?
13. ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? Want to tell me now?
14. do you think I could kill someone?
15. describe me in one word.
16. do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
17. do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
18. are you going to put this on your live journal and see what I say about you?

Go Pistons

2005-06-22T00:42:41Z

As Rip Hamilton put it better than anyone else could, "it's gonna be a dog fight." And that it will be. The Pistons have not won on Spurs turf since 1997. However, the Pistons have a knack for winning games 6 and 7. Having not been 'guaran-sheed' a win tonight, I am little nervous. NBA fans around the nation are stumped at who win the NBA finals.

On another note....

People always tend to say, 'it could be worse.' If thats the truth, hand over the shot gun because I am going down. Things are falling apart and this time, I am not too sure that I can pick up the pieces. It scares me not being in control.